The Discomfort of Manifesting Your Dreams
A BTS look into something I'm working on right now
Confession: I am totally into all that manifestation stuff.
This may not come as a shock at all to anyone who reads my stuff here, because I utilize a lot of manifestation principles in my life on a daily basis, and it definitely bleeds through into what I share here. I grew up on this stuff, kind of fell away from it for a long time, and then came back to it a couple of years ago. It’s so cool how mainstream all of it has gotten.
But what’s really interesting that I think isn’t talked about as much as it could be is how really WEIRD and uncomfortable it can be when you start manifesting the life you really want to lead.
Now, when you’re working toward manifesting something, it’s really important to not freak your nervous system out in such a way that you self-sabotage or lose your manifestation. So, I’m in this place where I’m really grateful I’m not FREAKING OUT but just kind of quietly observing that it feels strange to expand into new territory and see myself moving closer to my ultimate dream life. It even feels a bit vulnerable to share this, but here we are. Hoping my journey can help others.
So, here’s the BTS on a recent manifestation.
Back in the Fall, my mechanic told me that my Camry, which I’d had for 14 years, was going to Camry heaven in the very near future and that the amount of repairs it needed would far exceed the value of the car (he’s a good mechanic, he could have easily milked me for every penny).
So, I decided to uplevel and get an SUV that could pull a horse trailer. I didn’t yet HAVE a horse trailer, but I’ve been wanting to get one because this hurricane situation in Florida is stressful AF. Plus, I’d like to get my own farm again so my horse Max can live on property, and it’s important to have your own trailer. So, note: this is kind of a ripple effect, not just getting any old new car. So, I did. I got myself a beautiful, sexy black Armada that feels super luxurious and gives me a little dopamine bump every time I see it. And then a couple months after I got myself a new horse trailer.
But YOU GUYS. Buying this thing and driving around in it felt (still feels, a little bit, if I’m being honest) like this big announcement to the world. Like stepping into the spotlight. Being super SEEN, which is something I’m actively working on being more comfortable with.
And here’s what I want to share with you all: manifesting what you want can be REALLY weird and uncomfortable, but you just have to claim it anyways.
Obviously, a car is just one flavor of a million things you could be manifesting. A dream job. Life partner. Healing past traumas. Finding your purpose. Writing a book.
No matter what you’re creating in your life, you have to know you deserve it. Not for working super hard or doing anything better than anyone else, but simply because if it brings you happiness, you deserve it. Just for being you.
You have to OWN your happiness. Your joy. Unabashedly. Unreservedly.
And when those parts of you feel weird and strange, maybe guilty, maybe worried everyone is going to judge you for manifesting your dreams, you give them a BIG hug, and you keep moving forward. You do NOT dim your light. You know that sharing your light and your success helps others on their path, too.
The act of BECOMING, of manifesting, of leveling up, of growth in all its shapes and forms, is going to be uncomfortable sometimes. You’re going to have cocoon stages where it seems nothing is happening. You’re going to have awkward, wet, fragile stages when you’ve just busted through into a new version of you (I am definitely HERE right now). And you’re going to have EPIC butterfly stages where everything is shining and magical.
And then you’re going to start over in another growth area, evolving in another new way.
Embrace the awkward, babes. Stand in your light. Love yourself enough to stretch into new territory and reach new horizons, even when that feels strange and a bit scary.
So, if you’re in the fragile pre-butterfly stage with me, high five. You’re in the right place. I’ll be right here with you.
XOXO,
Alexia